Just finished reading yesterday’s post, and know I have been on a Kingdom Journey for the past two years now. Thoughts swirled around in my head, the first one being, “uh-huh, discipline for sure…” followed by an increasing awareness that a plank of gargantuan proportions has been firly wedged in my eye, well, both, actually, while I have been running around focusing on specks in many others, mostly the people I love the most…
I didn’t comment, rather choosing to read on, noticing the follow up post, and now the thoughts are just tumbling out.
I think that short term missions trips can absolutely turbo-boost faith; in particular it appears to me the kinds of experiences AIM offers. They create the opportunity for real service, sacrifice and pushing one out of one’s comfort zone into dependency mode.
But not all mission trips are like that…some are sanitized, just like too much (in my opinion) of the American church is G rated. I am just reading Messy Spirituality and find myself agreeing with so many of the concepts and ideas the author articulates. And am feeling affirmed in pushing the envelope and getting myself into sticky situations with the religious “establishments” more and more.
I hope I am getting to a respite in the current leg of my on going Kingdom journey, and perhaps I am, as I really didn’t react at all, other than an “I don’t know” (stated in an accepting and void from anxiety, and total dependence, expecting the unexpected without dictating various scenarios) response to six months worth of legal invoices I just received yesterday regarding litigation I shouldn’t even be involved in in the first place…I hope my lack of hysteria conveys some of my mustard seed worth of faith to my husband…
Anyway, yes, discipline is unpleasant, but actually brings much freedom.
May the journey continue!