Seth! I absolutely needed to hear this today. I have been living with a family since August just to learn from them. Amazing story there. Yet lately I have had those stirrings again that I can’t ignore but don’t know how to feed.
I have been tired of only knowing what I don’t want…except for love, and not wanting to believe that that’s not enough.
I have exhausted myself trying to figure things out.
But what if I don’t have to figure things out? I felt Him say to me earlier this week,
“It won’t be something you figure out. It will be something you walk into.”
There are people who don’t think half as much as I do who still trust Him and live abundantly! By grace I have come away from the analysis paralysis.
I want to know the wisdom it takes people decades to discover, so I can spend my decades on something else.
And yet…it’s more about the journey. KNOWING HIM.
My crave for a nomadic lifestyle doesn’t always seem to harmonize with my longing for rich relationships.
I want to help the poor, and I believe I can still serve them even if I am poor too.
I ache to just live life with people and help them discover the grace of God and His ridiculous love for them. Especially the people who are already His!
It pains me to think of living a life where the priorities of my hands have to be different than the priorities in my spirit.
I don’t know what this means. I can’t put it all together. As much as I think I don’t like that, I do. 🙂 I have daydreams of just going… driving and couch surfing for however long seems good to do so, testifying to the gospel of His GRACE and knowing the meaning of manna.
Pray for me? 🙂
And thank you!
By the way…you were in my dream last night. You brought a really cool map into a classroom and had me sifting through pebbles and orange dust. Whatever that means!