You are absolutely not alone! I feel this way more than I don’t. I often feel like that verse in Song of Songs when she says “I looked for my Lover, but he had gone.”
I plod on because where else is there to go? I know the words of eternal life are with Him. I know Him too well for too long to ever go anywhere else, and yet I sometimes think I don’t know Him at all. How come if He wants to be with me so badly I rarely experience His presence in a way I can feel? What’s the good of God being with me if it seems to make no difference?
Yet it always does make a difference, even if I can’t always see it or feel it. So I keep the only promise I know I can – I keep on coming back to Him all the time, praying, breathing prayers as I walk through my day, having Him in the context there somewhere. And who says that life walking with Him has to be full of touchy feely powerful experiences as if an ordinary day is something He wouldn’t be interested in?
Starting to notice He is there in the well timed email, the friendly smile in the street, the little things of my life. If all good things come from Him, then those simple things surely do too and are worth a thank You. Sometimes that’s all there is. But who said that’s not okay? It’s a start anyway.