Hi. I’ve been silent. I’ve taken on more hours when possible with the pizza delivery job I have. Grateful for that at least. Otherwise still on the hunt for the full time job or some way to make an income (possibly going to start a ConvertKit landing page to offer encouraging/prophetic poetry to people, so will see where that goes I suppose). Working on changing my mindset over a lot of things, though it is difficult at times to do so.
I am also praying fervently for my marriage. The date for court is apparently 1/4/2021, but I am praying that my wife will allow us to talk with counselors I did a workshop with and see things in a different light, but the fact she barely even talks to me at all is hard to get us to that point. Need mighty prayers of God’s grace and provision over us talking and meeting with the counselors that will show a different way than the path we are on. Learning about taking back my authority and declaring things again. It’s hard when one feels so beat up that it is hard to focus on the paths that lie ahead.
I am weary through everything and it’s a wonder I can still function the way that I can at the moment.
I also have not been able to write a lot to begin with and want to get that going again. Pray for God to unleash the dam holding back the thoughts and words in my head. I need to get the books out of my head out and published at some point. If I could get a job that would allow for me to have the financial side of things taken care of for awhile, then I could take some time here and there to get the writing back going consistently (probably thinking about it wrong though honestly, just not sure how to get going forward, even though I am trying one step at a time). Thanks.